Oh Boogie
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Do you for one moment think that, walking around, spending time with each other is simply something we do after school? And that is boring?
Sure, walking around is boring. That's when we don't have time.
Even if we had the time, we'd still be walking around. Or going to my place.
Is it my fault that I have an obligation to my uncle? To fulfill that, I work at his place.
I didn't ask for this independence that was forced upon me when I grew the age of 14. I didn't ask for it. Most would want it. But after a while, you lose out on a lot of things that others have. Social life.
Personally, I don't think it's fair to me. That I don't really have money, or have time for myself. I don't think it's fair to my girlfriend that I don't have time nor money for her either. I didn't ask for this.
I'm not the type to crawl to my mother and ask for money. Never will I be like that.
I refuse to ask or let myself depend on others. I hate that feeling. I love this feeling of being financially independent. Speaking from a vantage point which I've stood at for 5 years and running, this vista is beautiful, and I don't want to let go of it. It's the sweetest picture there is and I know it's going to get better.
That's how I would describe as being financially independent.
Maybe I shouldn't make plans as to what I want us to do. That'd just give you expectations. Not making plans shows that I'm not exactly competent.
But because of circumstances that happen along the way. I cannot continue with those plans. I cannot. I cannot. I cannot.
Some people, just don't understand that. I can't take that.
I can't take people coming to me and tell me, "we said we'd do this on that other day, but we didn't."
Did you try looking at my current situation and see why I couldn't have us carry that out that other day? I would love to salvage my current situation, but I'm not allowed to. It's ironic, I know, but I can't. It simply isn't within my control.
But yes, I'm not going to work next month. Then I would have time to spend with someone next month on the weekends. With that, I would also have money I earned this month to spend next month. But after removing whatever amount I have to cover for this month. I don't think I have a lot of spend anyway.
But why the hell not right? To drive a fucking point to someone. Why not. Worth suffering for about 2 months anyway, from February onwards.